The Bleeding Woman: Pursuit of Healing { Day 4 }

When Women Encounter God Study

READ: Matthew 9:18-22

Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.” {Matthew 9:20-21 ESV}

She pressed through the crowd with what little strength she had left, desperate and depleted. She had forgotten what it was like to be known for who she really was instead of by the sickness that now controlled her.

“When you are sick or hurting you only want one thing – to be whole again.”

Maybe she was the life of the party at one time with a long list of friends. Maybe she felt pretty in the past when she caught a glimpse of her face, but twelve years later she could hardly recognize the tired, worn-out woman who took her place. Now she was the broke, sick girl. One of those labels would be bad enough, merge them together and you have a train wreck of desperation that takes over your life.

She was a woman active in the pursuit of healing.”

Even her quest for healing and answers left her empty handed and flat broke, but one encounter with God can change everything. One empty hand reaching out was all she needed and proved she was willing to place herself on a path of healing one more time. Too weak to run ahead of him, she trailed behind the man she heard about named Jesus. I identify with this woman on so many levels. I was the woman who couldn’t carry a child and went through miscarriages before finding out what was really wrong with me. Before then, I was the nineteen-year-old with anxiety trying to pray it away and figure out how to keep everyone happy. I was a broken girl reaching out to God knowing that he could heal me. Like her, I refused to give up. Desperate reaching out to God made me the woman of faith I am today. The reaching will always be worth it.

I wonder if she thought about all the bad advice and uneducated guesses of well-intentioned people, or thought about all the things she had already tried like home remedies and 3 easy steps to find the right cure to heal her inner brokenness. A huge part of me believes she left all of those empty promises behind her.

So many times I fall into the trap of exhausting all other resources before turning to God. It’s what we do, isn’t it? My heart is to move past what I think are easy fixes to meet with God and follow him through life even when it hurts.

Perhaps when our friends ask us what’s wrong we barely scratch the surface of what is really going on inside of our hearts. We stick to nice, safe, and half of our real truth. But, this passage in Mark tells me what we need to know about having a real encounter with God.

Then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and, trembling with fear, told him the whole truth. { Mark 5:33 }

She fell at his feet and told him the whole truth. We can tell Jesus our whole truth and be real with our needs.

We can trust God with all of our broken places and reach out to him believing that having needs is not the absence of faith- it’s the pursuit of faith and real healing that lasts.

REFLECT:

  • What are you reaching out for and needing from God?
  • Have you grown weary in carrying the same requests to him over and over? Often we give up right before our breakthrough happens. Keep going.
  • Have you felt that your needs were bigger than your faith? There is hope for you. Keep reaching out!

PRAYER:

Lord, we come to you ready to reach out to you. Teach us how to be women who look to you first before exhausting all other resources. We know that you are our healer, so we come with a fresh commitment to tell you our whole truth. Give us trusted friends who will walk us through difficult seasons in prayer and give us the guts to be vulnerable and real with our needs. We want to encounter you on a daily basis and be women reaching out to you in every area of our lives. Amen

 

Jennifer Watson
Jennifer Watson
Jennifer Watson is a writer, youth minister, pastor’s wife, mother of two, and typical lipstick loving Southern girl. Jennifer has been in ministry for seventeen years and loves to speak at women’s retreats and special events. She likes her tea hot and sweet with lots of sugar and cream.

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